Pastor has been preaching in a series on spiritual warfare. I do believe it is one of the best series I’ve heard him preach and the man has preached a lot of phenomenal sermons. The series has definitely been right on time and so appropriate for 2020. The key words I hear throughout are be steadfast – continue – keep going – recognize where the attack is coming from – don’t quit.

One of the things I see and say over and over with women in recovery is that being secretive in your thoughts is bad for recovery . . . Especially when you think no one will know. I don’t know if men struggle with the thoughts in their minds like women do but I know if a woman gives in to her thoughts they can paralyze her.

I started being more accountable a few months ago in my recovery – for the first time in twenty- three years of sobriety I was struggling with some pretty bad thoughts that would have led to relapse if I hadn’t guarded my heart and mind and reached out to some women who are mentors and are strong in their faith for accountability to walk with me through the struggles.

And while I’m okay now – I’m still really not okay.

It seems the scriptures are just words that aren’t even penetrating beyond my eyes and my time with the Lord is becoming more sparse because of that – which is exactly what Satan would like to happen. (I keep remembering what few circumstances I could actually understand out of The Screwtape Letters and how Satan orchestrates little hiccups to divert us completely . . . )

A few days ago my eyes were being diverted to a series of books I bought years ago. This morning one came to mind so I’ve pulled it off my shelf, dusted it off, and committed to read and work through it.

Anyone that knows me knows I don’t read anything that is a hard read, and the Bible Studies I work on don’t include words I have to constantly look up just to comprehend one sentence – this study is not like that.

I am in no place to lead a group on this . . . y’all know I’m taking a break from teaching during this season, but if anyone wants to do this study with me to help get through the rest of 2020 please let me know. We could either meet at a coffee shop or even zoom just to talk about what we’ve read and what we are gleaning from this study based on I & 2 Timothy, Titus, and Philemon.

There are many sites to order it from but I got mine off Amazon, along with several other of his “Be” series.

And by all means, if you are struggling, you need to know you aren’t alone. Please reach out.