It has been an interesting month to say the least. But this particular week has been hard on me.
One day this week I cried. Oh nothing specific was wrong . . . except the unknown . . . but for the first time I felt scared.
I have been countering fear and fighting that demon for weeks, even ignoring it and stuffing it . . . but that is what a coward does. They stuff it and pretend it isn’t real. But this particular morning I looked it straight on and faced it.
It was hard.
But it was good.
A few days ago the Lord was prompting me to begin researching some verses. This morning He began to unfold the reason why and in my time walking through Genesis this card fell out.
One of the Charis House ladies gave it to me. She had been memorizing it and during one of our classes she reached in her Bible and handed it to me. It has stayed in my large study Bible ever since then. I would see it from time to time but this particular morning it fell out of my Bible.
Not only had God reminded me through this card that had my life verse on it that He is able to use bad things for His glory but He also reminded me I am loved by many because of a note she had written on the back of the card.
It is easy to remember the good coming out of tragedies when good is happening. But it is often hard to remember the good and His promises when things aren’t so certain.
So today, even if you are scared or maybe you are so wounded from pains of the past and you feel you can’t keep going – I need you to do two things . . . 1- Remember His faithfulness in previous times of darkness and uncertainty and 2- I just need you to know it is completely okay to not be okay – just don’t let yourself stay there too long.
He loves you.