It never ceases to amaze me how the Lord works.
Even though I sensed our church would be closing its doors Sunday I studied to prepare for our small group lesson. I had planned on teaching our small group lesson via zoom Sunday morning because even if the church would meet I knew with my health I couldn’t be there. I was so determined to not let Satan have the victory through this virus . . . so much so that my self-mode defensive line took over.
Not once did I stop to pray about it – I just planned.
Saturday afternoon my spirit was restless.
After finally sitting still to listen to the Holy Spirit one word was whispered, “abide”.
Immediately my thoughts went to Matthew 12: 43-45. I goosebumped all over because that was the third time in the last few weeks those verses were brought to mind.
The Lord was telling me to rest in Him and BE in Him – for me – to be on guard and stop doing during this time. He showed me I needed stillness and to quit trying to do things on my own.
I saw then the busyness in myself everyone else has seen. I understood and thought if nothing else good comes through this virus the Lord showed me what He means for me personally to “Be still”.
And that’s a good thing.
I couldn’t get my devices to load yesterday’s sermon properly but once I was able to listen to it this morning, over and over the pastor continued to say the word, abide.
Again, I said, “okay Lord. I’m listening.”
I had a rough night last night. I was up until 4 not feeling well. After resting most of the morning I decided to grab my devotional and Bibles and sit on the front porch in the sun for a little bit. As I was flipping to Psalm 139 to read the scripture references for the Not Forsaken Bible study a shiny penny caught my attention. It was dated 7/26/19 and had been placed at Psalm 91:1, “He who dwells In the shelter of the Most High will ABIDE in the shadow of the Almighty.”
I smiled. You know, the kind of smile that comes from the deep peace and comfort that you know the Lord is right there with you? Yeah. That kind of smile.
Scribbled in black ink are the words “health”. I then went on to read more of my scribble . . . “intimate, divine protection.”
And a little further down the word REST is written next to ABIDE.
I spoke with one of my son’s teachers a few days ago. She was just checking in. She knew we were a family of faith because Christopher is always talking about his Olive family (that made me smile too). She said these words to me, “I don’t know how people can get through days like this . . . not having any Hope.”
And I couldn’t agree more.
My heart is burdened for the lost today. Those taking their last breath without knowing Jesus as their Savior. I wish I could tell them all how much they are loved. That Jesus died for their sins and it doesn’t matter what they’ve done He wants a relationship with them. That He is waiting on them to surrender their lives to Him.
Lord, I love you. Thank you for loving me and wanting what is best for me. Thank you for speaking into my spirit this weekend and days before. Thank you for removing the scales from my eyes so I can truly see how busy I am. Forgive me for being in self mode and thinking I knew best. Lord I pray right now for those that don’t know you and are sick with the virus. Lord please put someone in their path – a nurse – a doctor – a lab tech – that knows you as their Savior and can share you with them. Be with the families that have already lost loved ones. Use these tragedies somehow for good. I know you can and I know you will. Be glorified Lord Jesus. Amen.
If you are interested in Pastor Traylor’s sermon from Sunday morning here’s the link: https://boxcast.tv/view/olive-baptist-march-22-2020-gt2jocctnrcldd31blgh