I laid down last night hopeless. Discouraged. Full of regret.

I should have seen it coming. When you are going toe to toe to attain victory over a stronghold of fear (or any stronghold) you can expect the evil one to play dirty.

The evil one doesn’t want any of God’s children victorious.

And I fed right into it. Self condemnation, regret, remorse . . . then I gave him permission to beat me down because I stopped countering the negative thoughts.

But God . . . .

The burden is still there but I woke this morning rested and no longer defeated. Scales were removed. Consequences stink but I serve an amazing Father who wants me completely free.

Why can’t I have release from this?

Why can’t I grow and learn from this?

Why can’t God get the victory IN this?

Why can’t. . . .

And He whispers, “I can.”

Even when I don’t see the way out I already know He has gone before me.

I know He is fighting my battle for me.

I know He can use all things for His good.

I just love my Lord.

So why not me? Why not now?

Before I ever got out of bed this morning He reminded me of a song one of the Charis House ladies introduced to me that speaks faith so boldly – “Why not me? Why not now?” Then He reinforced it by taking me to Psalm 30 –

I will exalt you, Lord,
for you lifted me out of the depths
and did not let my enemies gloat over me.
Lord my God, I called to you for help,
and you healed me.
You, Lord, brought me up from the realm of the dead; you spared me from going down to the pit.

Sing the praises of the Lord, you his faithful people; praise his holy name.
For his anger lasts only a moment,
but his favor lasts a lifetime;
weeping may stay for the night,
but rejoicing comes in the morning.

When I felt secure, I said,
“I will never be shaken.”
Lord, when you favored me,
you made my royal mountain stand firm;
but when you hid your face,
I was dismayed.

To you, Lord, I called;
to the Lord I cried for mercy:
“What is gained if I am silenced,
if I go down to the pit?
Will the dust praise you?
Will it proclaim your faithfulness?
Hear, Lord, and be merciful to me;
Lord, be my help.”

You turned my wailing into dancing;
you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent.

Lord my God, I will praise you forever.

He’s gonna turn my wailing into dancing y’all. And I can’t dance worth a lick so when it happens it’s gonna be GOOD! 😉 Don’t you just love those verses?

David was crying out to God from a near death experience – “have mercy on me Lord”

Maybe you aren’t facing a physical challenge today . . . maybe that challenge is in the mind . . . maybe that challenge is the result of poor choices . . . maybe that challenge is from trials from a time before you even knew the Lord – what God did for David, He will do for you. And for me.

What He starts He will complete.

The question is do you trust Him through the process?

So why not here? Why not me? Why not you? Why not now?