Our God is intimate, personal, and relatable.
I’m so glad He is the one constant I have.
Yesterday was a tough day. When you have a child on the Autism spectrum you never know when all the emotions (good stress or bad stress) will break lose in an emotional rage.
Yesterday was that day.
Weekends are supposed to be restful and fun – but in our home it’s not. The emotional roller coaster that puberty brings to young boys is tough for any parent, then you bring in an already emotionally unstable puberty driven teenager, plus a change of schedule, and an I don’t want to do that attitude and it’s a train wreck waiting to happen.
For five hours yesterday he screamed. Threw things. Banged on doors and walls. And did I mentioned he screamed for five hours?
Days like yesterday take everything out of me. Mentally, physically, and spiritually.
This morning I woke at 4 am. I wanted to go back to sleep but my mind replayed over and over all the ways I handled yesterday poorly.
I opened my Bible to look for a specific verse and instead stumbled upon one of my favorites in Isaiah 43.
But now, thus says the Lord, your Creator, O Jacob, and He who formed you, O Israel (Stacey), “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you (Stacey); I have called you by name; you (Stacey) are Mine! When you (Stacey) pass through the waters, I will be with you (Stacey); And through the rivers; they will not overflow you (Stacey). When you (Stacey) walk through the fire, you (Stacey) will not be scorched, nor will the flames burn you (Stacey). For I am the Lord your (Stacey’s) God. The Holy One of Israel, your (Stacey’s) Savior. . . . vs 5 – Do not fear for I am with you (Stacey).
Sometimes the Lord brings a song to my mind early in the mornings. This morning was no exception but I started out differently. My thoughts were, “I need to see you again”, over and over “come now like a rushing wind I am desperate for your presence” – now I can’t remember the exact words but I really don’t think the Lord minds if I mixed up a few lines – so a quick google search allowed me some time to just just sit and rest this morning.
I am sure your trials are different than mine this morning, but they are just as important to the Lord as mine are. When you hurt, He hurts. When you are burdened, He is burdened.
I hope this song will encourage you or comfort you as you turn it in to a song of prayer and praise to our Creator – the One who formed you and knew you before you were even a glimmer of hope in your parent’s eyes.
We serve a personal, intimate God. Our Creator. Our Hope.