This one especially is for me this morning.

Steps of obedience are hard. Usually obedience means letting go of something we want and it’s tough. Sometimes we even have the audacity to think we know better than God.

This week I knew God had spoken into my spirit about something and I didn’t follow through.

I never expected what would happen during the hours that followed thought – The pain of disobedience that followed just minutes later and pursued me for hours – whew – far outweighed that pain of obedience.

I may never know why, but what I do know is my prayer life sure has already increased because of surrendering my will – my wants – eve what I think is best.

Still – my heart breaks – and it mourns – even knowing God has this.

I still hurt.

My hope is there will be a day when it is unveiled before me what all this was meant for, but that is never a guarantee, is it?.

I do know God will never reveal to us everything He has planned for us at one time, whether it is areas of our lives that needs pruning or blessings He wants to bestow on us. We just couldn’t handle it all at one time.

I’m thankful for layers this week.

I’m thankful for grace and mercy this week.

And I’m thankful for a God that knows what’s best even when I don’t understand.

I Samuel 15:22-23

Has the Lord as great a delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices
As in obedience to the voice of the Lord?
Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice,
And to heed [is better] than the fat of rams.
For rebellion is as [serious as] the sin of divination (fortune-telling),
And disobedience is as [serious as] false religion and idolatry.
Because you have rejected the word of the Lord,
He also has rejected you as king.”