I have not had the prompting to blog since July of 2015. I have prayed for the desire to write, and even yearned to be able to write . . . but God said, “wait.”
But, this morning, He said, “write,” and the words began to flow.
It feels amazing to pen what is in my heart.
I need to share a praise.
Since September . . . . SEP-TEM-BER! I have been providing the State of Florida Child Support Enforcement with my ex-husband’s employer’s information. I have saved every written correspondence and am convinced now more than ever of the state’s incompetence and lack of care at collecting child support from dead beat dads. I have even been lied to on multiple occasions . . . but through it all, I can say one thing.
And I prayed a lot.
“Lord, you know our needs. You know they have the information. You know . . . you know . . . you know.”
Last night I checked our bank account to see how much, if any I had left to buy groceries. “Lord, I have $84 to buy groceries for another week and a half and buy gas, what am I going to do? Oh and those ‘stupid’ Valentines are due next week and all the other goodies the teacher is asking EACH child to bring in.” I also checked my online child support case information . . . nothing.
I was overwhelmed.
I prayed for buy one get one free items at Winn Dixie and to arrive at the store when the meats were being marked down to help stretch the dollar. And while I am still anticipating that that particular prayer will still be answered, because, “God Knows,” God finally moved on the child support. It will take a few days for my bank to receive the money but my online child support case showed THIS MORNING that child support was collected of $104.52.
For some reading this, the details are not important, and honestly, I started to not share them, but I felt that would take away from the minute details because someone out there needs to know that God is in the details. Those tiny inconspicuous details that no one knows about . . . . the ones that seem “silly,” especially when others are dealing with such “big” trials like battling cancer, premature child births, broken marriages and oh so much more.
God is in the details.
Luke 12:7 says that God knows the number of hairs on each of our heads. Oh my . . . and another one, Matthew 10:29, “Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.” If God knows when a sparrow falls to the ground . . . AND TWO are only sold FOR A PENNY . . . how much more do He cares for one of us?! How much more does He know our every move . . . Our. Every. Thought?
Oh friend, God is in the detail.
It’s mind boggling, isn’t it?
God often uses birds as my visual of His provisions. A bird flying by with a worm hanging out of his mouth. A bird building a nest to make a home for young to hatch. A hawk carrying off its prey. The feather’s of a bird that remind me of Psalm 91:4, that He will cover me with His feathers and under HIS wings I will find refuge. As I was writing this post, one song continued to play over and over in my mind, “His Eye is On the Sparrow,” so I looked it up. I am attaching the link so you can take a few minutes and listen to it. As I listened to the song and continued to write, the music continued to play. I encourage you to not stop at, “His Eye is On the Sparrow.” Keep listening. There is a series of incredible songs that will leave you encouraged, empowered, and refreshed.
Lord, thank you for breaking me free and allowing me to share today. Thank you for letting the words flow and for the scriptures you brought to mind. Thank you for answering my prayers. Thank you for providing in astounding ways. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for caring about the details of our lives. Thank you for proving yourself faithful time and time again. Go before us this day. May we be Jesus to just one some body today so they too may see You. We love you, Jesus. Amen.