Intentional Investments

“So you are investing in other people but not investing in the “One” you SHOULD be investing in which means you aren’t investing in yourself either. How are you supposed to be all you are to be for your children? How are you supposed to fulfill God’s purpose for your life if you aren’t investing time with Him”

The words the counselor spoke have been running through my head continuously.

Just weeks before the appointment the Lord kept telling me to be intentional. Be intentional. Be intentional. I thought He meant for others . . . . but He didn’t. He meant for me.

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I have had this dresser for almost a year now. It was picked up off the side of the road. It is solid wood with MANY scratches externally and even a cigarette burn, but the inside and actual structure is sturdy. It is an old dresser, and by that I mean it was all tongue in groove. The tracks on the wooden drawers were made of wood. No metal. No plastic. A solid . . . solid wood piece of furniture. I have planned on cleaning it up to either use it or sell it, but time had gotten away from me and I never “invested” my time in the dresser, and sadly, no one wanted the dresser because it was not pretty. I knew I had to invest time in the dresser in order to sell it. As I sanded and primed, the word invest continued to ring through my head.

It took me much longer to complete the project (in fact I’m still not done with it) because of pinched nerve pain, but I worked slowly, stopping when necessary but being intentional with investing in this project to bring it to it’s fullest potential. And what is so neat is it doesn’t REALLY matter how long it takes me to complete it, the point is progress is being made. Slowly, and steadily.

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As my thoughts have continued to ring on investing in myself and intentionally investing my time with the Lord (and by that I mean more than only listening to Christian radio and more than the drive through devotional a few times a week), I thought of the dresser again. Even though it looks MUCH better than it did a week ago, it’s still JUST a dresser. Nothing has changed about it’s insides. Nothing has changed about it structure. It is still a sturdy, functional piece of furniture. Then the thoughts became personal. I can work on the outside. I can put on make up. I can put on the glam and put on a good face . . . but if I am not intentionally investing in the Lord which in turn invests in me, then all the outside work is in vain. 1 Peter 3:3-4

“So you are investing in other people but not investing in the “One” you SHOULD be investing in which means you aren’t investing in yourself either. How are you supposed to be all you are to be for your children? How are you supposed to fulfill God’s purpose for your life if you aren’t investing time with Him”

Those words cut deep. Way deep. Painfully deep. I caught myself thinking, “All the ‘work’ I had done,” and then even thought, “but Lord, you have called us to feed the hungry, to clothe the poor, to be doers of the word.” Oh how I could justify it all, but doing God’s work without God . . . . .  now that doesn’t make much sense now does it?

I’ve written today in much pain, but as I wrote, God continued to whisper to me that “I (just as you are) am the apple of His eye.”

After doing a BibleGateway search MANY times in various translations one scripture continued to pop up, Deuteronomy 32:10-14, “He found him out in the wilderness, in an empty, windswept wasteland. He threw his arms around him, lavished attention on him, guarding him as the apple of his eye. He was like an eagle hovering over its nest, overshadowing its young, Then spreading its wings, lifting them into the air, teaching them to fly. God alone led him; there was not a foreign god in sight. God lifted him onto the hilltops, so he could feast on the crops in the fields. He fed him honey from the rock, oil from granite crags, Curds of cattle and the milk of sheep, the choice cuts of lambs and goats, Fine Bashan rams, high-quality wheat, and the blood of grapes: you drank good wine!”

I am not sure if I am the only one that continues to neglect myself by investing in others before myself, (after all that is contrary to what we are taught), but if you are struggling, hurting, or doubting, maybe angry or just sad, You are the apple of God’s eye. He will be like an eagle, hovering over you, protecting you. He will teach you to fly. God and God alone will lift you to the hilltops so you can feast on the crops of the field (He will be your provider). And while I will not be drinking any good wine (LOL), I will not thirst, and neither will you.

I hope you take time today to intentionally invest in you by investing in God.

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